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Saturday, September 26th, 2009
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7:17 pm
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| Friday, September 25th, 2009
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7:13 pm - Do you like boys or girls?
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Is confusing these days.
I want a girl like the one in this video
:D
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current mood:  mischievous
current music: Elefant
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| Wednesday, September 23rd, 2009
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9:15 pm - Wounded is the organ he left all.. . bloodied on the shore.
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| Tuesday, September 15th, 2009
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1:03 pm - The LOsT Art oF KeEpiNg a SecreT
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I was looking through the window of that cheap motel room, thinking of how did I end here tonight. Morning was coming already, the sky filling up slowly with pink splashes.
"This time that needle mark might get infected" I was thinking as I walked to the bed where she was laying, sleeping deeply.
Im ambivalent about motel rooms. What bothers me is the same thing that seduces me:
the filth, the idea of sharing everything with other sinners, the nasty bed with its silky sheets, the tasteless and timeless decoration (or lack of it).
"It's like a movie..." thinking while getting closer to her.. .
Look for reflections, in your face,
canine devotion, time can't erase.
And so I took the gun I dropped beside the bed when I took off my clothes last night.
Feeling for the silencer on my left front pocket, never taking my eyes off her skin so soft. When I got it all together, I took a pillow and shot her in the head, the way you see in the movies.
It was a clean shot. And she was dead alrighty. I waited for half hour maybe, staring at the ceiling. After that the body was cold, so cold but soft still.
So I touched her again, I was kissing her pale lips when the phone rang...
-"Yes?"
-"An hour left or you'll pay another day"
"Click"
Cool. Half an hour later I was sneaking out of the room and got to my motorcycle.
It was a pretty winter day. Cloudy and chilly. And I was just in time to get to work, after getting the usual coffe and donuts at Jane's.
-Can I have one, partner?- Said official McLeod.
-Of corse, dear- I said - You can have all you want, *blink.
-Nice to see you're in a great mood today! Did you get some last night, babe?
-You bet I did.
Whatever you do.. .
Don't tell anyone.
Whatever you do, don't tell anyone.
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current mood:  working
current music: Noise
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| Saturday, September 12th, 2009
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12:21 am - Got the Life
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If i could start again.. . a million miles away,
i would keep myself;
i would find a way.
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current mood: devious
current music: NIN
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| Monday, September 7th, 2009
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7:13 pm - Love is evil.. .
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Not sweet, not nice, not beautiful.
Love is poison, darkness.. . evil.
Many times will you cry, many times will you bend before that other you love in order to satisfy them, to make them happy regardless of your own happiness.
They'll tell you it's worthy.
And is it? Really?
I don't think so.
I believe in longlasting relationships, and happiness as state of mind, possible, reachable... but love is a trick. Love is not forever. Love is mischievous.. .
I sure like a good trick though.
XD
Ok, enough.. .
You know, I think I really am someone else, ha.
o_O
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current music: None
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| Sunday, September 6th, 2009
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11:32 pm - Autumn is coming, I can feel it...
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Halloween is upon us. What will this one bring?
I'm only in the mood for one thing...
Blood and fangs and lust.. .
Somewhere, outside, there are tricks and evil.
Another year of expectation.
Take me to a dark alley.. . drain me, but keep me alive.
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current mood:  thirsty
current music: A/C
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| Tuesday, August 25th, 2009
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1:56 am - Meditations keep on coming
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| Friday, August 14th, 2009
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10:44 pm
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This is all so strange... for some reason I feel like I'm not myself...
Meh, I'm sure it's just a phase...
"wink"
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current mood:  contemplative
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| Sunday, January 25th, 2009
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12:54 am - WinTer lOve.. .
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Never at summer, maybe i'm too goth for that XD
It wont last, is like the seasons.. . gone when you just started to enjoy it. But it doesnt matter, is better this way.
I don't even know what I'm doing here.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.. .
Little boy walking down the street. Godverdomme, you gotta be with me.
Well I know, you know.. .
everybody, everyone let's go!
Het leven is hard, de mensen worden bang. I'm so old, you're so young.. .
I know, you know.
Everybody, everyone let's go!
Ik denk van ja, maar nee. Little boy, listen what I say... .
You know, I know,
everybody everyone let's go!
Oh, baby, baby, you're so sweet!
Whoooo
Ah, baby, baby, you're so sweet.. .
Goddamn, ah, ah, whoa!
Hey, what are you looking at?
She was a teenage girl when she met me.
;)
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current mood:  silly
current music: noise
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| Thursday, November 6th, 2008
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12:19 pm - and how we had fun, yes, we did.. .
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| Friday, October 31st, 2008
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1:56 am
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Happy HalLoWeeN everybody.
Let's celebrate
:D
Tonight... everything is posible tonight.. .
believe in me as i believe in you,
tonight.
Tonight. ..
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current mood:  excited
current music: Kidnap the sandy claws - Korn
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| Sunday, October 26th, 2008
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5:03 pm - BloOdy AproN - Leg oF Lamb
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Leting things happen instead of making things happen.. . why?
Because i don't want to try, and fail.
But if things doesn't happen.. . is it failure still?
I think - yes.
Then,
lets make things happen.
*cheers.
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current mood:  sleepy
current music: random
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| Saturday, October 4th, 2008
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11:58 pm - SoMetHiNg iN the WaY. . . .. .. ... ... ..
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I escaped from the Starship Xx December Xx!I killed Medio Drogados the tribble. I salvaged an Arte model hazmat suit and 2 galacticredits. Score: 7 Explore the Starship Xx December Xx and try to beat this score, or enter your username to generate and explore your own space adventure...
I died in the Dungeon of Xx December XxI was killed in a crumbling corridor by Aguarock the owlbear, whilst carrying... the Dagger of Literatura, the Axe of Endofautumn, the Armour of Dibujando, the Armour of Conciertos, the Sword of Literatura, a Figurine of Galadarling, the Wand of Dibujando, the Dagger of Arte and 2 gold pieces. Score: 26 Explore the Dungeon of Xx December Xx and try to beat this score, or enter your username to generate and explore your own dungeon...
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current mood: weird
current music: none
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| Friday, May 16th, 2008
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8:36 pm - × aNcienT sOuL ×
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Life is nothing,
________________________ and nothing is all you will ever get.
Of all the emotions a human can have, there is only one that is real.
And that will be, my friends, physical pain.
Happiness and love (and all the others alike) are so unreal we are always worrying for their end. And when they are gone we look back at them as if it was a nice dream or an illusion, something that wasn't really there to begin with, something that we just wanted to see.
Hate (and such) is like religion, we believe we are called to care about things that bother us, when we could easily let them go. Then we finally get over that, realize it didn't matter and we think of them as yet another hallucination.
Of course, there is people who never get aware of this. They need to hate/-believe-.
Then comes sadness, melancholy, sorrow, regrets, etc (emotional pain). These emotions are about past tense. Wanting impossible things; things you are not allowed to change. Just drama and desperation eating your sanity. Even if real situations back then, merely ghosts today.
Fear is the awareness of things we cannot have. It is the unavoidable future. It comes when you gonna lose or when you won't get something/someone. It's always combined with hope (the lousy bastard) and followed by denial, and also hate for the weak.
Pleasure is a demon, though sometimes real.
So the conclusion here, is that physical pain is the only sensation that attach us to reality. The only thing that proves we are alive and feeling.
No dream here - i'm bleeding.
It measures time; you can feel it starting, you can feel it sliping away and while is there it gives you clarity, awareness of life, it makes you real.
"You learn to love the pain you feel"
___________________________________________ -Garbage
Special greetings to the only 2 persons ever comment on this journal, and the ones that actually make me keep it updated (even though not so often).
WeirdnCrazy and Aguarock.
Thanks for being around guys!
:D
The author.
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current mood: thoughtful
current music: iN uTerO
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| Monday, May 5th, 2008
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10:53 am - +RaNdoM+
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10:31 am - I kNow tHat i'M OrDiNary; jUst LiKe eVeryoNe... ..... . ...
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I'm not dead!!!!!
i'm just living in my head.
Did i told you smashing pumpkins concert was the best i ever had?
and i've had a lot, trust me on that.
Letting aside my all times love for Green Day, this concert was fucking amazing and aarrghhh...
have no words to describe it.
Even though i was at the farest end...
didnt matter at all. And thats a lot to say coming from me. I hate being at the back.
Here the proof:
I swear it looks farter than it was!
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current mood: satisfied
current music: Echo...
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| Saturday, April 5th, 2008
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8:27 pm - .:i felL iNto a BurNinG riNg oF Fire:.
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I went to the Ibex last friday, there was a tribute to Nirvana and Alice in Chains. Had a great time. Then, today... got a "f" huge hangover... damn is bloody huge!
And just now that i have to study for X-ray test.. .
but no sympathy for the devil here... not at all.
XD
"Never again, it's what you swore the time before.. ."
♪
Yeah, we're all just a bunch of liars.
Boat drinks for all.
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current mood:  nauseated
current music: Smashing Pumpkins
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| Sunday, March 16th, 2008
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11:55 pm - +PaiN+
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The more you suffer, the more it shows you really care.
But what to do when no one cares, when that person that makes you miserable doesn't even know.. .
when all the pian you got is to you alone.
It wasn't that way before,
but everything changes, and it feels like this time it wont wash away.
All this pain, won't go away.. . all the time ahead is just not enough.
The whole rest of this insignificant life can't cover it.
But you're also doom now, and rotten and jaded and broken. If there's any chance for joy with this person ahead - you wont have it. You'll ruin it one way or another, cause on those times when "everything's" alright, you'll remember.. . you'll remember the suffering and the anger will come and the bitterness.. . so you'll fall in that vicious cycle.
And life will be different for you. And that pain (like needles pushed into your heart) will never leave.
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven...
ooh, it makes me wonder.
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current mood:  sore
current music: Led Zeppelin
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| Thursday, January 3rd, 2008
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12:44 am
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:D
Happiness and peace of mind.
Greetings to Enrique, fair game!
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current mood: relaxed
current music: deftones
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